It's exactly 10 more days to Christmas, so here comes the reflective period before the much-awaited yuletide season of giving and receiving, cliche as it might sound (Hell yeah actually I only give a hoot about the food). I'm going to recount 2009 for myself it's gonna be a long miserable post ahead with a lot of ramblings on how 2009 gave me a bad time. I'm going to start from the very start.
As 2008 had been a blast for me, I expected 2009 to be heaps better, considering i was going to enter a new phase of life (Junior College, Senior High, whatever you've got). I expected more fun from school, but sadly no. School was a torture for me this year, I was never expected to put in so much effort in schoolwork or in my social life. Everyone and everything seemed harder to deal with. Somehow friends just weren't... friends. They are people you meet in reality and forgotten soon after. Who gives a damn whether you want to play ball or not. Who gives a damn when you need a late night talk. And who gives a damn if you're sick or tired. Put on a smile and you're good to go. A smile. Even when you're not smiling inside.
I suppose it comes with being in your late teens. The year started so bad for me, school or family. I learnt to be alone this year, something I could never put up with in my secondary school years. I never had to go home alone or sit alone in the canteen. Used to think that was for losers, but this year I changed that. Being alone was something I looked forward to when I was going home from school, to re-arrange my thoughts for the new day. Year 5 taught me to not want people to talk to me. And I am somehow glad for that, if not I'd still be the attention-seeking bitch I used to be. Now I erm, have extremely low tolerance for people who cannot be alone and constantly needs others' attention. Hello, grow up?
Family-wise, it was terrible. My parents couldn't deal with their baby girl (i am the eldest kid) needing to stay out later and having more commitments, resulting in many fights. On many accounts I attempted to leave home and on a particular day I managed. It was a first for me and I really want to thank my best friend for putting me up for the night. The moment I stepped out I felt lost. Immediately. It was pretty unwarranted and I hadn't been thinking ahead I just packed my bags and left. Moreover I had school plus some mosque trip the next day I even packed stuff for that. It was crazy. And I think I hurt my parents a lot so I vowed never to do it again. Oh and guess what? When I packed my stuff like jeans, facial cleanser and whatnot, I left my phone behind accidentally. They must have had cardiac arrest when they realised I was completely and totally uncontactable. Alright so after that I was so remorseful I gave myself a hunger strike (completely irrelevant) and it got so bad my dear best friend again, had to give me rations. HAHAHA it was actually funny. Like she told me on the phone that this cannot go on and she marched to school with a huge bag of food for me so that I wouldn't die at the age of seventeen from hunger.
Now I'm on good terms with my family. I actually feel blessed. They cut down on playing the control freak part and we both compromised. Finally something that turned out right for a horrible 2009. More to come, sit tight.
One fateful day in March I did the craziest thing ever. Everyone's been egging me on and a stupid stupid stupid horoscope section from Life! cemented my fate. I. Should. Never. Have. Listened. Oh well I am not exactly regretting what I did, but I presume it would be so much better if I've never done it. Right? I had enough drama to last me a lifetime I wasn't exactly needing that, was I? It didn't help much either I just fell in deeper until September when I was "resurrected" and started to be normal again. Three months into normality simply just feels great. Although the haircut didn't signify "great" but whatever.
PW was utter rubbish. A complete waste of time meeting deadlines and attempting to pacify prickly people who totally didn't deserve my attention one bit. Oh yes bringing up prickly people. It was an omen to a bad 2009 when they released the groupings. At least I managed to survive and the oral presentation went well. Could at least save the Written Report. My marks were dipshit, a terrible sight to behold. Frankly speaking it was the worst report slip I ever brought home. My parents weren't surprised, I haven't been putting in my best. Sleeping at almost every lecture, (did I copy my tutorials?), not bothering to revise etc. Nonetheless they still got me my laptop, which I am really thankful for because I totally didn't deserve it.
Now that I'm done with the horrible stuff that happened, time to move on to the good ones. Towards the later half of the year, things started turning better. I was coming out of my shell and abandoning my ignorance, I learnt to LOOK properly at the people I'm dealing with (shady characters with sniper rifles), I accepted many things and moved on. I knew who were nice to me and who weren’t, I knew who mattered and who didn’t, I knew who I should trust and who I shouldn’t. Now I want to thank many many people for many things they have done for me (and they probably didn’t realise).
Jessica Woon
This is my best friend and she deserves an epitaph written about her. But just make do with this alright? Thank you girl for putting up with me and my phone calls about insignificant and stupid things that happened to me. Thank you for always being there. We’ve come a long long way and we still got a long long way to go! You are the one who makes me feel that I’m never alone and not to mention, the one who laughs at my jokes and listens to my bad singing at night. Without you life/school will be so much different because without you there’s no me and school will be so boring for everyone else. Nah just kidding. You probably hate school as much as I do and because we don’t conform people probably don’t care about us but who cares? Let’s continue skipping classes next year and we can hide in the sick bay! Or stuff ourselves in the canteen. Thank you for being part of my “clique” (cue incessant laughter) and being okay with all the stupid ideas I came up with. Thanks for being my swimming and gym partner. Thanks for having your period around the same time as mine. Thanks for pigging out with me. Thanks for being the other girl in my clique so that I wouldn’t have to be the only one. Oh man now that I’ve written all these, I’ve got nothing else to write in your Christmas card, would you mind a blank one? HAHAHA LOVE YOU WOONZI! After our smelly A’s next year we got a HK trip to plan! We’d better write down the list of food we want to eat so that we wouldn’t forget to eat any of them! And the things to buy. And all the pranks we are going to play on Regina. Think we got the pillow one already. Need about 99 more! Whoa now really, there’s nothing to write for your card. Think I’ll just put a photo of myself because a picture speaks a thousand words! (siyun is so pretty x 250) = 1000
My family
Sorry for all the trouble I’ve caused and thanks so much for the meals, the pocket money, the doing of laundry and the love. Without you all I am nothing. I wouldn’t even be typing this because I will have nothing to type with. I wouldn’t have to put up with HOW BLOODY NOISY OUR NEIGHBOUR IS because I wouldn’t have a house to live in. I wouldn’t have shampoo to wash my hair, school to go to and even a bed to sleep in. And thanks in advance for the food at the Christmas party! Know there’s gonna be sushi, pizza and chicken already!
My “clique”
You people are the most tolerant kids I’ve ever met. For the first time in my life, I’ve people giving in to me so readily and letting me be the brat I never was. Thanks for spoiling me with all the basketball, badminton and prata! Making me fat and thin! And to our dear Ahpek, if I never left home that night we’d still be strangers. And now we are not. Your 21/25 Econs essay earned me some praise from Mdm Leong yknow! I remember all the stupid videos you used to show me. They were really stupid. You’re so damn pro in badminton you can play in slippers and not sweat the slightest bit and yet still own me flat. My shuttlecocks are all frayed thanks to you. Badminton soon! And Minjie this is the 10th Christmas I’ve known you and you’re still as dark as ever. Get yourself some snow. By the way, thanks for offering me to treat me to Macs when I thought my hopes of getting a Mac were dashed. I never forgot that because it was so sweet of you and secondly it was a pretty bad attempt at a joke but never mind, nice try! I will continue being God’s blessing to you by telling you more racist and blue-cat jokes. Funny right? Nice house (and maids) you’ve got, movie sleepover soon? Lastly Liren! Thanks for forcing yourself to watch horror movies for me and for making those math tuition sessions with Bowen bearable. Without you around I’d die when I’m with Bowen. Also, for agreeing to play with me whenever I wanted and letting me disturb you during the law conference. And being my garbage bin by finishing up my food for me. And letting me laugh at you about your newly acquired umbrella and DOyourememberwhatshername. Thanks for being so bloody tolerant and I’m glad I got the chance to know you better this year (despite knowing you since I was barely 13)! Do you want some veggies for Christmas?
Bowen
Lol you. You’ll never see this probably but hell yeah surprise surprise you are on my list. You! You are the first math tutor I’ve ever had in my life and thanks to you my confidence was crushed over and over again because you can’t seem to stop hinting at how hopeless I was at math. But no matter what, I still have to thank you because if I don’t people will say that I took advantage of your study time and prevented you from getting higher marks. Hahaha thanks for being WILLING to teach me, being there to quarrel with me or else what is year 5 without some squabbling, not being afraid to play basketball in front of me, being rather encouraging sometimes and looking so pissed with the world most of the time. Appreciate you for taking time out for me (but lucky got liren around). However, I’m still gonna say this: I’ll pwn you flat next year (feat eh?) if not I’ll write my name upside down. Just you watch! Merry Christmas!
Alicia, Maureen, Cheryl
Hey girls thanks for making 5C36 better! Glad to know you all better this year (plus Alisa) and thanks for all the boring times during lectures. Sorry if I disturbed any of you hahaha! Looking forward to another year with you all.
Ramdas & Wong interns/lawyers
It was a fabbbb 6 days with you guys and it spiced up my holidays so much! Probably more fun than any overseas trips and it’s funny how we clicked so well despite the difference in age. Meet up again soon and have more crazy times together!
The usual people
By this I meant people who were around and have stuck by. Not going into details who, but yeah if you know who you are, thanks for staying by and you know it means a lot to me.
Not going to go any longer, I’m on the fifth page of Word already. I am grateful to all the happy memories I have of this year and thanks for the invention of cameras I get to keep them! I am going to persevere in thinking only of the best of this year and I hope everyone will have a wonderful Christmas. I shall skip resolutions because they are never meant to be fulfilled. Hope 2010 gets better and Santa leaves something for me.
PS. Jess and Minjie are gonna be back tomorrow! YES!!!!!
As 2008 had been a blast for me, I expected 2009 to be heaps better, considering i was going to enter a new phase of life (Junior College, Senior High, whatever you've got). I expected more fun from school, but sadly no. School was a torture for me this year, I was never expected to put in so much effort in schoolwork or in my social life. Everyone and everything seemed harder to deal with. Somehow friends just weren't... friends. They are people you meet in reality and forgotten soon after. Who gives a damn whether you want to play ball or not. Who gives a damn when you need a late night talk. And who gives a damn if you're sick or tired. Put on a smile and you're good to go. A smile. Even when you're not smiling inside.
I suppose it comes with being in your late teens. The year started so bad for me, school or family. I learnt to be alone this year, something I could never put up with in my secondary school years. I never had to go home alone or sit alone in the canteen. Used to think that was for losers, but this year I changed that. Being alone was something I looked forward to when I was going home from school, to re-arrange my thoughts for the new day. Year 5 taught me to not want people to talk to me. And I am somehow glad for that, if not I'd still be the attention-seeking bitch I used to be. Now I erm, have extremely low tolerance for people who cannot be alone and constantly needs others' attention. Hello, grow up?
Family-wise, it was terrible. My parents couldn't deal with their baby girl (i am the eldest kid) needing to stay out later and having more commitments, resulting in many fights. On many accounts I attempted to leave home and on a particular day I managed. It was a first for me and I really want to thank my best friend for putting me up for the night. The moment I stepped out I felt lost. Immediately. It was pretty unwarranted and I hadn't been thinking ahead I just packed my bags and left. Moreover I had school plus some mosque trip the next day I even packed stuff for that. It was crazy. And I think I hurt my parents a lot so I vowed never to do it again. Oh and guess what? When I packed my stuff like jeans, facial cleanser and whatnot, I left my phone behind accidentally. They must have had cardiac arrest when they realised I was completely and totally uncontactable. Alright so after that I was so remorseful I gave myself a hunger strike (completely irrelevant) and it got so bad my dear best friend again, had to give me rations. HAHAHA it was actually funny. Like she told me on the phone that this cannot go on and she marched to school with a huge bag of food for me so that I wouldn't die at the age of seventeen from hunger.
Now I'm on good terms with my family. I actually feel blessed. They cut down on playing the control freak part and we both compromised. Finally something that turned out right for a horrible 2009. More to come, sit tight.
One fateful day in March I did the craziest thing ever. Everyone's been egging me on and a stupid stupid stupid horoscope section from Life! cemented my fate. I. Should. Never. Have. Listened. Oh well I am not exactly regretting what I did, but I presume it would be so much better if I've never done it. Right? I had enough drama to last me a lifetime I wasn't exactly needing that, was I? It didn't help much either I just fell in deeper until September when I was "resurrected" and started to be normal again. Three months into normality simply just feels great. Although the haircut didn't signify "great" but whatever.
PW was utter rubbish. A complete waste of time meeting deadlines and attempting to pacify prickly people who totally didn't deserve my attention one bit. Oh yes bringing up prickly people. It was an omen to a bad 2009 when they released the groupings. At least I managed to survive and the oral presentation went well. Could at least save the Written Report. My marks were dipshit, a terrible sight to behold. Frankly speaking it was the worst report slip I ever brought home. My parents weren't surprised, I haven't been putting in my best. Sleeping at almost every lecture, (did I copy my tutorials?), not bothering to revise etc. Nonetheless they still got me my laptop, which I am really thankful for because I totally didn't deserve it.
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Now that I'm done with the horrible stuff that happened, time to move on to the good ones. Towards the later half of the year, things started turning better. I was coming out of my shell and abandoning my ignorance, I learnt to LOOK properly at the people I'm dealing with (shady characters with sniper rifles), I accepted many things and moved on. I knew who were nice to me and who weren’t, I knew who mattered and who didn’t, I knew who I should trust and who I shouldn’t. Now I want to thank many many people for many things they have done for me (and they probably didn’t realise).
Jessica Woon
This is my best friend and she deserves an epitaph written about her. But just make do with this alright? Thank you girl for putting up with me and my phone calls about insignificant and stupid things that happened to me. Thank you for always being there. We’ve come a long long way and we still got a long long way to go! You are the one who makes me feel that I’m never alone and not to mention, the one who laughs at my jokes and listens to my bad singing at night. Without you life/school will be so much different because without you there’s no me and school will be so boring for everyone else. Nah just kidding. You probably hate school as much as I do and because we don’t conform people probably don’t care about us but who cares? Let’s continue skipping classes next year and we can hide in the sick bay! Or stuff ourselves in the canteen. Thank you for being part of my “clique” (cue incessant laughter) and being okay with all the stupid ideas I came up with. Thanks for being my swimming and gym partner. Thanks for having your period around the same time as mine. Thanks for pigging out with me. Thanks for being the other girl in my clique so that I wouldn’t have to be the only one. Oh man now that I’ve written all these, I’ve got nothing else to write in your Christmas card, would you mind a blank one? HAHAHA LOVE YOU WOONZI! After our smelly A’s next year we got a HK trip to plan! We’d better write down the list of food we want to eat so that we wouldn’t forget to eat any of them! And the things to buy. And all the pranks we are going to play on Regina. Think we got the pillow one already. Need about 99 more! Whoa now really, there’s nothing to write for your card. Think I’ll just put a photo of myself because a picture speaks a thousand words! (siyun is so pretty x 250) = 1000
My family
Sorry for all the trouble I’ve caused and thanks so much for the meals, the pocket money, the doing of laundry and the love. Without you all I am nothing. I wouldn’t even be typing this because I will have nothing to type with. I wouldn’t have to put up with HOW BLOODY NOISY OUR NEIGHBOUR IS because I wouldn’t have a house to live in. I wouldn’t have shampoo to wash my hair, school to go to and even a bed to sleep in. And thanks in advance for the food at the Christmas party! Know there’s gonna be sushi, pizza and chicken already!
My “clique”
You people are the most tolerant kids I’ve ever met. For the first time in my life, I’ve people giving in to me so readily and letting me be the brat I never was. Thanks for spoiling me with all the basketball, badminton and prata! Making me fat and thin! And to our dear Ahpek, if I never left home that night we’d still be strangers. And now we are not. Your 21/25 Econs essay earned me some praise from Mdm Leong yknow! I remember all the stupid videos you used to show me. They were really stupid. You’re so damn pro in badminton you can play in slippers and not sweat the slightest bit and yet still own me flat. My shuttlecocks are all frayed thanks to you. Badminton soon! And Minjie this is the 10th Christmas I’ve known you and you’re still as dark as ever. Get yourself some snow. By the way, thanks for offering me to treat me to Macs when I thought my hopes of getting a Mac were dashed. I never forgot that because it was so sweet of you and secondly it was a pretty bad attempt at a joke but never mind, nice try! I will continue being God’s blessing to you by telling you more racist and blue-cat jokes. Funny right? Nice house (and maids) you’ve got, movie sleepover soon? Lastly Liren! Thanks for forcing yourself to watch horror movies for me and for making those math tuition sessions with Bowen bearable. Without you around I’d die when I’m with Bowen. Also, for agreeing to play with me whenever I wanted and letting me disturb you during the law conference. And being my garbage bin by finishing up my food for me. And letting me laugh at you about your newly acquired umbrella and DOyourememberwhatshername. Thanks for being so bloody tolerant and I’m glad I got the chance to know you better this year (despite knowing you since I was barely 13)! Do you want some veggies for Christmas?
Bowen
Lol you. You’ll never see this probably but hell yeah surprise surprise you are on my list. You! You are the first math tutor I’ve ever had in my life and thanks to you my confidence was crushed over and over again because you can’t seem to stop hinting at how hopeless I was at math. But no matter what, I still have to thank you because if I don’t people will say that I took advantage of your study time and prevented you from getting higher marks. Hahaha thanks for being WILLING to teach me, being there to quarrel with me or else what is year 5 without some squabbling, not being afraid to play basketball in front of me, being rather encouraging sometimes and looking so pissed with the world most of the time. Appreciate you for taking time out for me (but lucky got liren around). However, I’m still gonna say this: I’ll pwn you flat next year (feat eh?) if not I’ll write my name upside down. Just you watch! Merry Christmas!
Alicia, Maureen, Cheryl
Hey girls thanks for making 5C36 better! Glad to know you all better this year (plus Alisa) and thanks for all the boring times during lectures. Sorry if I disturbed any of you hahaha! Looking forward to another year with you all.
Ramdas & Wong interns/lawyers
It was a fabbbb 6 days with you guys and it spiced up my holidays so much! Probably more fun than any overseas trips and it’s funny how we clicked so well despite the difference in age. Meet up again soon and have more crazy times together!
The usual people
By this I meant people who were around and have stuck by. Not going into details who, but yeah if you know who you are, thanks for staying by and you know it means a lot to me.
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Not going to go any longer, I’m on the fifth page of Word already. I am grateful to all the happy memories I have of this year and thanks for the invention of cameras I get to keep them! I am going to persevere in thinking only of the best of this year and I hope everyone will have a wonderful Christmas. I shall skip resolutions because they are never meant to be fulfilled. Hope 2010 gets better and Santa leaves something for me.
PS. Jess and Minjie are gonna be back tomorrow! YES!!!!!
- Mood:
grateful - Music:Holidays from Real - Jack's Mannequin
My dad totally didn't buy it when i said I'd be out with friends for a movie. Kept asking how many people there will be and stuff. Probably back into the boyfriend issue again. What on earth. Now what are the odds of me getting out without getting interrogated!
Anyway today was fun! Had a good laugh with the girls after the movie but seriously i was freaked after the movie. I am so swearing off horror it got my heart stopping so many times. Lucky I didn't have to pay for it, had a movie voucher! The crowd was entertaining though, laughed at all the funny parts. But the scary > funny.
Oh man I'm turning into a freak, I actually blog almost every day.
I DO NOT HAVE A BOYFRIEND.
BELIEVE IT OR NOT.
Anyway today was fun! Had a good laugh with the girls after the movie but seriously i was freaked after the movie. I am so swearing off horror it got my heart stopping so many times. Lucky I didn't have to pay for it, had a movie voucher! The crowd was entertaining though, laughed at all the funny parts. But the scary > funny.
Oh man I'm turning into a freak, I actually blog almost every day.
I DO NOT HAVE A BOYFRIEND.
BELIEVE IT OR NOT.
Lindsay Lohan for Muse Magazine. Always love her, Always will. It's just so fucking sad the media always target her and portrays her as bad as they can when everything is not true, and she had to appear on the Ellen show to clear all the rumours.
I used to believe gossip websites such as The Superficial, but as when I start to follow up on Britney on Breathe Heavy I could see that both websites tell different stories which proof that gossip websites could only be trusted to that extent of a gossip website anyway.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What bad timing it is to start on 90210 when everyone around you is already beginning to start panicking about next year and holiday homework. But its really good, i mean 90210, got me watching late into the night. i gotta stop sleeping at 3am every night, makes me feel horrible whenever I wake up. Like sleep hangover.
Back to 90210. Ethan looks like how i want my boyfriend to look. Tousled short hair and brooding eyes. But obviously my boyfriend will look so much better than Ethan and my boyfriend cannot cheat on me! And i thought Naomi looks more like a mom more than her mom does. Gonna continue watching and attempt Econs at the same time.
Sobs Jess and Minjie will be going off the church camp tomorrow and there won't be anyone to listen to my late-night rants. Yknow those sinking feelings you get in the middle of the night about how life sucks. No other people will probably understand and they might just be the only two souls who get me when I'm in a bratty mood.
I'm not a brat most of the time.
Did my hair already. There hasn't been once when i do my hair and i never regret. Darn. On the brightside, my mom is letting me get a bag. And on the brighter side, she's getting one which I wanted long ago and that means the bag I can get will be another one that i like. &&& on the brightest side, I don't even freaking need to pay. Not like i have the money to pay anyway. Really hope she manages to get the Gucci Indy. Been coveting it for the longest time. But she said no to my Chloe. :( Oh well, no matter what, Christmas hauls this year are great. A cheque from R&W while some other people only got an umbrella, a Macbook and a bag. What more could i ask for! Then it'd be time for me to get my school bag, one without holes that is, and perhaps new school shoes if i can find a pair that I like.
Then it's the bloody As already. Looking at the prom photos, i am so envious of the y6s. And when Brian said he hasn't been doing holiday homework for the past few years. 2010 is going to be tough. Having breezing through 4 school years and wasting this one, I don't know how to face next year.
I AM GOING TO BE THE DOPEST MUGGA IN TOWN.
Then after that I will paint the whole damn town red.
Back to 90210. Ethan looks like how i want my boyfriend to look. Tousled short hair and brooding eyes. But obviously my boyfriend will look so much better than Ethan and my boyfriend cannot cheat on me! And i thought Naomi looks more like a mom more than her mom does. Gonna continue watching and attempt Econs at the same time.
Sobs Jess and Minjie will be going off the church camp tomorrow and there won't be anyone to listen to my late-night rants. Yknow those sinking feelings you get in the middle of the night about how life sucks. No other people will probably understand and they might just be the only two souls who get me when I'm in a bratty mood.
I'm not a brat most of the time.
Did my hair already. There hasn't been once when i do my hair and i never regret. Darn. On the brightside, my mom is letting me get a bag. And on the brighter side, she's getting one which I wanted long ago and that means the bag I can get will be another one that i like. &&& on the brightest side, I don't even freaking need to pay. Not like i have the money to pay anyway. Really hope she manages to get the Gucci Indy. Been coveting it for the longest time. But she said no to my Chloe. :( Oh well, no matter what, Christmas hauls this year are great. A cheque from R&W while some other people only got an umbrella, a Macbook and a bag. What more could i ask for! Then it'd be time for me to get my school bag, one without holes that is, and perhaps new school shoes if i can find a pair that I like.
Then it's the bloody As already. Looking at the prom photos, i am so envious of the y6s. And when Brian said he hasn't been doing holiday homework for the past few years. 2010 is going to be tough. Having breezing through 4 school years and wasting this one, I don't know how to face next year.
I AM GOING TO BE THE DOPEST MUGGA IN TOWN.
Then after that I will paint the whole damn town red.
Alright solitude was a bad idea. It's eating me alive, this whole week other than prom and tuition I seriously haven't been out. Oh well other than seeing Jess before tuition for a walk, it felt good actually. Like I was getting my life back.
Something tells me I should sleep now, but I know deep down it's not going to make me feel better. My new Mac didn't make me feel better as well. Now thinking of it I actually like being busy. Like ever since holidays started I've been swamped with work to do it hardly gave me breathing space but it gave me a sense of purpose. I hate dwindling my days away. As much as I know i've got to get started with schoolwork, like do full-day revisions to push up my grades, I've got no motivation. i hate wasting my days on going out, but my friends make up most of my life. Except for some people who I really have no desire to see. Ack.
Think I'll bring my laptop out and do Econs tomorrow. Gotta persevere in my determination to finish solitude. Meanwhile I'll write my Christmas letters. School is starting soon, gotta enjoy it while it lasts.
Funny how i've got so much to spill but my sentences are coming out short. And dissected. Looking forward to Saturday! I can finally do my hair and shop at Spotlight! How exciting to wait to break out of solitude.
I miss you a lot. Go out soon okay?
Something tells me I should sleep now, but I know deep down it's not going to make me feel better. My new Mac didn't make me feel better as well. Now thinking of it I actually like being busy. Like ever since holidays started I've been swamped with work to do it hardly gave me breathing space but it gave me a sense of purpose. I hate dwindling my days away. As much as I know i've got to get started with schoolwork, like do full-day revisions to push up my grades, I've got no motivation. i hate wasting my days on going out, but my friends make up most of my life. Except for some people who I really have no desire to see. Ack.
Think I'll bring my laptop out and do Econs tomorrow. Gotta persevere in my determination to finish solitude. Meanwhile I'll write my Christmas letters. School is starting soon, gotta enjoy it while it lasts.
Funny how i've got so much to spill but my sentences are coming out short. And dissected. Looking forward to Saturday! I can finally do my hair and shop at Spotlight! How exciting to wait to break out of solitude.
I miss you a lot. Go out soon okay?
- Mood:
depressed
I guess I should write this down if i don't ever want to forget. These couple of weeks had been a blast, one of the best holidays I've had so far. I presume the best will come next year, after the damned A's and there will be a Hongkong trip with my favourite EDS girls! Maybe we can go to Laos with the Laos people, what do you think! Omg I am getting so excited about next year.
Signing up for JCLP must have been the best decisions i've ever made in the seventeen messed up years of my life. The biggest mistake I made was to take H2 Physics! But thank goodness i've dropped it to H1 and next year will be so much easier for poor me. Oh yes back to the attachment. Met the awesomest people everrrrrr! Wei Ting, Shuyin, Gee Jing, Josiah, Marcus, Brian, Weng Hong, Yingxin. And the lawyers! Lois, Seow Ser, Kenneth, Adrian and many more. And I got to take loads of photos recently man did I ever mention HOW MUCH I LOVE PHOTOS. Not just taking them, but keeping them. They're probably the most important things in my computer. We had a lot of fun, all the meals and going out it was so worth it getting my phone confiscated for one damn night ahaha! Got home later than i was supposed to be and my dad got a little miffed he demanded for my phone and my ezlink card (?). Either he thinks i'm out partying with strangers or boys or hanging out with my boyfriend, which i told him repeatedly that I do not have one and he apparently remains stoic and unconvinced. Oh well I will never forget this bunch of people for quite some time, should hang out more often! Facebook has been proving its worth as of late ha! STAAAAAY IN TOUCH :)
I am not going to upload photos here because Livejournal can be such a bitch when it comes to uploading photos. Now back to my homework and my boring life. I am declaring solitude this week! Haven't been alone for quite some time, even when i am alone on the train it's kinda hard to sort out my thoughts with the crazy rush hour commuting crowd. Oh that is going to be something i'll miss as well, all the crazy rushing and squeezing during peak hours. And all the cab rides as if we are really rich lawyers already. And all the meals that cost more than canteen food. Really need time alone so don't ask me out! Even if you do I'll give you a crappy excuse and you just gotta live with it baby!
Unless you are someone special, heh heh! Gotta go off now, have fun reading my rare posts. Night homies!
Signing up for JCLP must have been the best decisions i've ever made in the seventeen messed up years of my life. The biggest mistake I made was to take H2 Physics! But thank goodness i've dropped it to H1 and next year will be so much easier for poor me. Oh yes back to the attachment. Met the awesomest people everrrrrr! Wei Ting, Shuyin, Gee Jing, Josiah, Marcus, Brian, Weng Hong, Yingxin. And the lawyers! Lois, Seow Ser, Kenneth, Adrian and many more. And I got to take loads of photos recently man did I ever mention HOW MUCH I LOVE PHOTOS. Not just taking them, but keeping them. They're probably the most important things in my computer. We had a lot of fun, all the meals and going out it was so worth it getting my phone confiscated for one damn night ahaha! Got home later than i was supposed to be and my dad got a little miffed he demanded for my phone and my ezlink card (?). Either he thinks i'm out partying with strangers or boys or hanging out with my boyfriend, which i told him repeatedly that I do not have one and he apparently remains stoic and unconvinced. Oh well I will never forget this bunch of people for quite some time, should hang out more often! Facebook has been proving its worth as of late ha! STAAAAAY IN TOUCH :)
I am not going to upload photos here because Livejournal can be such a bitch when it comes to uploading photos. Now back to my homework and my boring life. I am declaring solitude this week! Haven't been alone for quite some time, even when i am alone on the train it's kinda hard to sort out my thoughts with the crazy rush hour commuting crowd. Oh that is going to be something i'll miss as well, all the crazy rushing and squeezing during peak hours. And all the cab rides as if we are really rich lawyers already. And all the meals that cost more than canteen food. Really need time alone so don't ask me out! Even if you do I'll give you a crappy excuse and you just gotta live with it baby!
Unless you are someone special, heh heh! Gotta go off now, have fun reading my rare posts. Night homies!
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